Good evening,
I have started to feel better about the book situation. I had a magnificent weekend with my dad and his good energy. We talked a lot about the purpose of the entire situation and how I can manage it along with the other activities I am currently involved in.
One thing I have been waiting on for far too long is the Universe making things easy. During one of many chats, we talked about how personal happiness is number one, especially right now. Recent days have been spent mopping in bed, figuring out my next move. I waited for someone or something to wave its magic wand, making everything bad disappear. Since then, I have learned that only I can find the joy I am looking for. Hell, I can even curate it.
I have gone back and forth in my head about journalism being the right path for me. Many of my family members constantly question my motives, leading me to rethink where I am at as person and student. When I think about everything that went wrong, I hear their voices harping on me about my lack of thought process. I don’t think I thought through anything outside of the basics. I came to New York to learn, and here I am… learning.
Right now, all I know is that something good is bound to happen. I have noticed a similar pattern that my dad pointed out to me during our discussion. Life is just one big rollercoaster, and this feels like a huge bump. Currently, I am building up to one of my peaks. The rickety ride up is a part of the learning process, and I reserve the power to look to view how the coaster has come together. In situations like these I must remind myself that twist and turns will always be in front of me. I can respond in one of two ways. Kick and scream, demanding the coaster be halted for me, or sit back and enjoy the ride.
It’s time to enjoy
TJL